January 2008
18 posts
I want a tattoo so goddamn bad. I’m thinking about getting one after this semester as a present to myself for making it through this goddamn year. I really want an infinity sign, but with writing instead of lines, on my inner arm. But how fucking much would that hurt? Whatever, maybe I’ll switch locations. But still.
Goddamnit.
It’s that time again.
“Do you know what it means to learn? When you are really learning, you are...”
– Jiddu Krishnamurti
So according to Tabby, I need to tumble more. The thing is, the only stuff going on in my life right now is me thinking about how much I don’t want to be here. At all. Lisa and Tabby, I love you girls, but being here in San Francisco is not for me. Long weekends/vacations, maybe, but I can’t help feeling like I just shouldn’t be here like this. So fuck it, I’m counting down...
I’m leaving SD tomorrow and I’m not excited at all. However, I BETTER be seeing Maura and Beth. So that’s a perk. Also, I am looking forward to hanging out in the city with my mom and Ben. But that’s all. I just want to be here to stay forever and ever. P.S. Cloverfield sucked my balls, hard. I hate it.
Today has been one of my favorite days. I slept in til the perfect time of 9:15, and then I leisurely got up and ate and showered. Ben and I got coffee and went walking at the beach and took artsy pictures and acted all lovey-dovey. I came home and changed and went with Chelsea to get In-N-Out and shop in PB, where I bought a vest, two shirts, a cardigan, and some cool leaf earrings. Furthermore,...
I’m so torn over whether or not I should see Cloverfield. “Buck in Here” by DJ Felli Fell is my new favorite song, listen to my MySpace. I am $320 richer as of 5:00 pm today. I had to work my poor little fingers to the bone, and I was alone in storage rooms all week, but I finally made some money. And I am SO happy about it.
EW.
Fuck fat, spoiled, annoying ass girls on “My Super Sweet Sixteen” named Alex. Seriously, one of the worst human beings I’ve ever seen. She talks like a fucking idiot and her fat jumps around when she dances, and she’s having her own friends AUDITION to be VIPs at her party. GODDAMNIT. “Like, my friends should have been HONORED to be a huge part of my party…but...
It is 215 in the morning and Ben just left because I was falling asleep. Of course, now that he’s gone, I’m nearly wide awake and my shoulder aches. At least I have some delicious homemade oatmeal chocolate chip cookies waiting for me tomorrow! Yesterday was celebration of Ben and I being together for six months. We went out to dinner and hung out with his cousin and cousin’s...
Happy 6 months to me and Ben :)
Perfect.
Only in San Diego could I spend a January day in shorts and still manage to be warm. Also, I am the nerdiest of the nerds. Fourth grader in puppy love status. On my way home from the mall, I was waiting at a stoplight when Ben drove through the intersection. I honked and he threw me a peace sign through his sun roof. The thing is, my heart got all fluttery and started pounding and I started...
Big things happening. I’m officially feeling like I’m actually home, now that the holidays have passed and everything isn’t all crazy anymore. Yesterday I ate a fish taco. It was extreme. But it was enjoyable, and I may start eating fish tacos occasionally because I don’t get the nutrition that I need and that’s the only kind of fish that I like. Today I went to a...
“You know what I love about us? I love that we look good together. I love that we...”
– Ben
This is annoying but: Why oh why do I have to have the perfect boyfriend? It’s a fantastic change from dating assholes but it makes it so much harder to think about leaving. To be completely brief, my stay at home has been nothing short of amazing. I’ve been doing a lot of movie-watching, a lot of napping, and a lot of cuddling. Ben might drive up to SF with me and my mom and it...
I just signed up for this goddamn thing because Maura and Beth and Tabby have them, and I don’t know what to do at all. Fuck you three, okay? I’m just kidding. Help me understand this though :)